Depression treatment

I have this moderate obssession with online poker, so I play it from time to time for real money. I usually load 100$ or so in my account and play. I’m not sure if I lack the skills or what, but the last few months I’ve been loosing money. Check the balance from last 60 months and guess what, I’ve spent over 1200$ on poker.

This is one thing that makes me feel bad. After I loose, I really start feeling depressed. Not very depressed, but it can develop when other things add up. That’s why I’m working on quitting playing poker for money completely. But what to do when you feel bored and don’t know what to do? Do something for your self improvement. Maybe read a book about confidence or who to cook a nice meal. And remember, do one task at a time.

I’m really looking for some good ways to improve my speech skills, to get a more dominant voice and to speak infront of an audiance with confidence. If I find a good site about that, I’ll post it here for sure. Next time I will talk about exercise as a natural depression healer. I really have good experience with jogging.

Imagine this situation. You think of one thing you should do. For example, wash the dishes. But in the middle of washing the dishes, you remember you should make a blog post or take out your trash or maybe even eat something. And now you don’t know what to do.

Should you finish washing the dishes or should you make that blog post and wash the dishes afterwards. You get confused and if you’re not a strong personality, you could get depressed. At the end it’s a great possibility, that you won’t finish any of these tasks you are about to. And this will further deepen your depression feelings.

So my suggestion. Finish what you’re working on. Finish washing those dishes. Till the bitter end. You’ll feel good because you’ve acomplished that task and now can move forward to other. One thing at a time.

Just a quick note about my swimming. I was at the pool today (a female friend asked me if I would like to go with her and her friend yesterday) and it was great. I was swmimming a little (still need improvement) and I was enjoying the sun and people. It felt great and I’m still in a really good mood now. I had second thoughts about going to the pool because I was afraid some people will laugh at my lack of swimming skills, but that wasn’t the case. It was just pure fun! Sometimes you just have to go with your head trough the wall. It can help.

Just to be clear folks. I’m talking about chocolate that has a high percentage of cocoa here. 65% or more of cocoa should be in the chocolate. Don’t buy anything under 65%. It’s full of sugar and it will only make you more fat and thus more depressed.

Anyway, chocolate (cocoa) has this substance Serotonin which is stimulates the brain and is a natural antidepressant. I’ve found about this fact some months ago. So I started buying chocolate with high percentage of cocoa and I really noticed a mood swing for the better. I was happier and had more energy to do things.

You should also try it out - it really can’t hurt you or anything. And I would love to hear your opininion about chocolate as an natural antidepressant.

You always hear people (parents, friends…) talk that we should go out in the sun and have fun. And not to stay in our homes. Because sun is great for our mood. And it’s true. I always feel better when I’m outdoors for a couple of hours. But it doesn’t have to be so long.

20 minutes in the sun can be a real mood booster too. Just try it out. Don’t force yourself to stay indoors for too long. Yesterday, I was lying outdoors - enjoying the sunrays and I felt great afterwards. And today I’ll do the same thing (plus some bicycling!). Do yourself a favour and go out today! Next time I’ll talk about chocolate as a natural antidepressant.

The day started good. I was jogging in the morning and I was felling really good! The sun was shining I was happy. I was going to meet this girl to get a pizza (she’s just a friend). But also, my path went to a outside swiming pool facility where I was going to sign me up for swimming lessons.

Yes, I can’t swim. Well, I can swim a little but want to try to learn it really good. Can you imagine - every summer, friends go to the sea or the pool and have lot’s of fun. You would like to go too, but you’re afraid what they would say if they find out you can’t swim. This can really have a bad influence to your depression. I have those dreams where I’m at the sea and would like to swim but can’t. Really bad.

So at that swiming facilty I tried to sign up but the guy there didn’t have a clue what I’m talking about. Said I should look somewhere else. So I was driving like for an hour from my home on some stupid streets where I didn’t know where I am in the middle of nowhere to be exact! I was feeling so depressed and helpless when I was driving home .. (I didn’t want to drive there every day on the 5 day swimming lessons!).

Well on the way home with my car I was starting to feel really depressed and bad and when I came home I felt like shit. Then I’m talking with this female friend of mine over internet (I have a crush on her, but I’m sure she does not like me that way - it’s a long story, we’re friends like 5 years). Anyway, I had this idea to tell her that I have feelings for her but just couldn’t do it. ANOTHER MAJOR BANG to boost my depression ever further.

I was having these suicidal thoughts that I have in the last few months. They’re not that strong and I can control myself. But sometimes I think I’m getting out of control and won’t be able to hold myself back when trying to do suicide attempt.

Anyway, yesterday I’ve decided that that’s enough! I have to start to live better! I know many methods to boost my happines and I’m going to write them here to help other guys and girls and help myself. I’m also counting on your comments and your experience with dealing with depression and your tips and tricks on how to beat it the natural way! No pills for me! Let’s start this jurney today.